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1) Jared was supposed to come over tonight – but he had some “venture crew” meeting. He’s the vice president. I really wish he didn’t do that. I mean I’m glad he does things he likes but it’s frustrating. I was going to ask him to be my boyfriend tonight. That’s why it’s so frustrating.

2) Choir – All Shore. GRRR! Auditions are supposed to be this Saturday but the Shakespeare workshop is also this Saturday. I think right now it’s more important for me to go to the Shakespeare workshop. I mean I’m performing Shakespeare in a few months for the first time. I need to learn all I can about it. However, that means that I have to talk to Mrs. Oldham about it. I can’t do that. She’s going to be so mad and yell at me. I can’t haev that. I don’t need the stress from her. I have so much stress from everything else that her bitching at me would probably make me go off the deep end. I’m just going to try to civilly talk with her and explain that I feel it’s more important right now for me to go to the Shakespeare workshop.

3) Jared. I want him so badly. He’s so hot. He makes me feel so good. He treats me so well. He cares about me and he’s totally honest about everything. He’s so genuine. God! I can’t wait to see him again. I really wish that I could have seen him tonight. I was going to kiss him. But I guess that’s a good thing that I didn’t see him and didn’t kiss him because when I do it will make it that much better because we’ve waited(had to wait) for so long. I can’t wait to feel his lips press against mine.

I’M GGGAAAAAAYYY!!!! :):)

Yesterday was the worst day of my life. Lindsay, Eng term paper, psych test computer, matt, no disk, computer matt, can’t sleep, cry.

Dustin and I have gotten together 2 more times. he came to my play. gave me a kiss before I went on state.
It was amazing. Our performance was spectacular. Well mine was. There were a couple other people that were good. As a whole it was great. So many people were there just to see me. I felt so loved. Megan bought me a white rose and a golden star balloon and an adorable monkey!! Chelsea bought me a yellow rose and her sister Dana bought me a pink rose. OMG it was great. I love my family I love my friends. ———- I’m in 4th period right now, Choir, Mrs Oldham hasn’t been here for this the second day. We’re supposed to be watching this stupid video w/ black tenor guys. It’s horrible.

I’m so frustrated. Chase Wulff annoys the crap out of me. He keeps running his mouth about Drama stuff when he doesn’t know what he’s talking about and he thinks he’s all big & bad because he got the lead in Little Women. The only reason he got it is because of the way he looks. He’s a terrible actor. I can’t stand him anymore but I’m not going to be an ass to him. That’s not my style.
Guys are so confusing. I hate it. I hate being young and not knowing what to do. I mean I know what I want but I never get it.
(I wanna hit her in the face- Tierra Hudson)

Dustin is so annoying. I mean he’s a great guy but I was stupid for falling when I know I should ‘t have. But now there’s David. David Schaefer from Wilmington. he’s only a 1/2 hour from University of Arts which is where I’m hopefully going to go. And he’s so friggin hot. like unbelievably hot and he’s so sweet and so nice to me. I wish I was talking to him now. he’s so uh, just great. we can talk and talk and we understand each other. it feels good. I’M TIRED, this day is going by so slowly and I have to stay till 4:30 ugh. I’m gonna try to sleep a little.
“It’s flaming red, just like him.”

Why dose anyone do something just to make people think they’re cool? Why do they need to do stupid things just to make others like them? I mean sometimes I feel inadequate too but I don’t do anything just to make someone think I’m cool. What the fuck? I don’t get it. Matt- at the beginning of the period, he took out this piece of paper and said “DRUGS” and put it in his desk. I thought it was jsut pot and i thought he was a dumb@$$ then, However he showed the paper to me and it looked like little pieces of unlined paper ripped up and then he said “CO KAY I-EEN” OMG! HOLY SHIT!!! I have so many friends getting into hard drugs. (STUART- he’s dating this guy derek right now and last time I talked to him, he told me that he had been getting into E and cocaine. GOD!! )
and I was jsut in the front of the class and came to the back and Chris was taking one of the sheets of crack shit and put it in his mouth. GOD!! (crap I forgot Stef’s $) I know that he did it just to make matt think he’s cool. He’s not at all, I’ve lost all respect for him. All of it.